Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Regarding gay marriage.

Yeah. Stupid and bigoted as it is for people to deny gay couples the right to marry, my own personal views on marriage have changed.

The word "marriage" has far too much religious connotation for me to ever want anything to do with it, really. You know what? You can keep your stupid marriage. You want your little secret club for straight Christians, go right ahead. And to you I say, fuck you. I want no part of it.

Give EVERYONE, gay or straight or whatever-sexuality-they-are, a civil union under the law. Give everyone the same legal rights, under the same name. Then, if you want a marriage, you can go right on over to your church or mosque or synagogue or whatever and get one. That has nothing to do with the legal benefits.

That's what I think. Will it happen? Probably not. I'd be happy enough with everyone getting equal rights under whatever name they want, so long as it's called the same thing with everyone.

On Ken Starr


So apparently, in December, this lawyer named Ken Starr (apparently infamous for something involving the Clinton administration that I don't particularly care about) filed a "legal brief" to try and force those 18,000 loving couples who got married in the brief time when gay marriage was legal to divorce.

What. The. Fuck.

Really? REALLY? Not only are you bigots not happy with denying loving gay couples the right to marry, but now you're trying to split up those lucky few who made it in that brief interlude? When will the hatred end?

GAH. This is about where my anger goes beyond words. Just... gah.

Monday, January 26, 2009

On Suicide.

Touchy subject for some, I know. But I've been meaning to do this for a while.

I could never commit suicide.

It's not that I'm afraid to die. I'm not. I don't want to die, but I don't fear death.

The reason is that, even though I may feel worthless and disgusted with myself when I'm down, I know that people I love would be hurt if I were to off myself. And I don't mean to sound pretentious. I trust my friends and family, and they have told me that they would miss me numerous times. I'll take them at their word.

Knowing that, there is no way I could cause them pain like that, for my own sake. Because, really, suicide is selfish. (Not attacking anyone, this is just my opinion.) It's selfish, because it serves only your own wishes. You don't want to live anymore, so you kill yourself. But you leave behind people who are devastated and confused. You leave behind people who will miss you terribly. So in return for your escape (which doesn't do you any good at all in the long run anyway), you cause pain to those you love, and who love you. In a twisted way, you're only thinking of yourself.

Even if I felt completely hopeless, alone, and lost, I wouldn't. Because there are people who I love enough to die for. It's true. And if I love them enough to die for them, it kind of follows that I love them enough to live for them, doesn't it?

So yeah.

On the Westboro Baptist Church

Before I do the other post I was going to do originally, I need to just go ahead and get this out of my system.

Ahem. You may insert the cuss-wall-o-text that is going through my mind right now. I won't actually type it, because the fxxing bigots don't even deserve that much effort from me.


I can't even... gah.

It doesn't even make any sense! I'm torn between utter fury and disbelief. Good God. OH MY GOOD GOLLY GOSH I SAID GOD'S NAME IN VAIN. Oops, I did it again.

Good grief.

No Day But Today

Hmph. There will definitely be at least three more posts (including this one) tonight, because I've got my thoughts all lined up and now I found this thing that's PISSING ME OFF. But that can wait.

This post has to do with my take on the message in RENT.

As anyone who is remotely familiar with the show knows, its tagline is "No day but today". Taken literally, one could think that this means you shouldn't plan for the future. That you can just go ahead and spend all your money, or drink till you see double-- it could be your last day, so why not? Looked at this way, the message doesn't seem very good at all.

However, the true meaning of the phrase is completely different.

"No day but today" means that you should not let your past haunt you. Make mistakes, learn from them, and remember that new knowledge. But don't dwell on could haves, should haves, what ifs, and such. The past can't be changed, and dwelling on it never helped anyone. Instead, look to the now, and look to the future. It is well within your grasp to change those.

"No day but today" means to go ahead and take that leap. When an opportunity presents itself, don't just sit back and think oh, I'll do it another day. Now. Do it now. Because you might not have another day.

"No day but today" means to live, really live; don't just analyze your life, but live it. Pay attention to what's going on right now. It's important.

That's it on that subject for now.


Ell oh ell. I totally forgot about this thing for a while. I knew that would happen. But now I'm back and ready/rarin' to go.

So. RENT. As if anyone reading this wouldn't know how much I love it. But I just really want to rant about why, and (in the next post) about what I believe the show's message means.

Let's flashback to summer of 07. 14-year-old me is freaking out, majorly, because there must be something wrong with me. I mean... I can't like girls, can I? That's...

Despite talks with a very close friend of mine (who is, in all likelihood, never going to read this), I couldn't come to terms with the idea of my even being bisexual. Surely someone like me could never be happy, never be close enough with my friends that they would find out this terrible secret. I devoted a couple of pages in my half-assed journal (hmm, something like this blog?) to wondering how people would treat me differently, whether they would shun me.

Unlike some, I didn't instantly fall in love the instant I saw RENT. It confused me, enthralled me, intrigued me. But at first I didn't understand why. I mean, the music was great and catchy and the movie was well done, the characters well-developed and all, but why did it slowly become more and more important to me?

It took me a good long while to figure it out. But when I did, it made perfect sense.

RENT showed a confused, scared me that there was absolutely nothing wrong with me. That I was not the only one who was attracted to those of the same sex. That I could be perfectly happy, and have great friends, a great life, without having to worry about pretending to be someone I'm not. That is what RENT did for me. And that is why I love it.

But as I continued through my violent-obsession-phase, I discovered more and more of what RENT really meant, at least to me, and what messages Jonathan Larson, genius that he was, had embedded in his great work.

RENT is about life. It's about love. It's about loss. It's about winning, losing, hanging on to a dream. It's about friendship, trust. It's about how one day, one moment even, can change your life forever in ways you never dreamed of. It's about living with no regrets, and never letting a chance pass you by. It's about joy, fear, fury, grief. It's about what's truly important in life.

RENT has absolutely, irrevocably changed me, and I firmly believe that it was for the better. Under all the spazzing and giggling about various cast members and buying everything I can get my hands on with the RENT logo on it, I have a deep and abiding love for what Jonathan has created.

"It's time now to sing out
'Cause the story never ends
Let's celebrate, remember a year
In the life of friends."

Despite the rampant overuse of this phrase, I can't help but close this post with a heartfelt thank you, Jonathan Larson.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

So. Guitar Hero.

Specifically, World Tour and Legends of Rock.

It's awesome. It is. I just spent like an hour playing with my brothers and my little brother's friend, and it was awesome. It seems like a kind of stupid idea for a game, but it's insanely fun.

Songs I like and what I like to play them on:
  • Living on a Prayer (Bon Jovi)- drums
  • Eye of the Tiger (Survivor)- guitar, singing
  • Hotel California (The Eagles)- singing, guitar
  • Misery Business (Paramore) - singing, drums
  • Heartbreaker (Pat Benatar) - singing
  • Rebel Yell (Billy Idol) - singing
So yeah. It's awesome. You should play it.